Day 4

The other day it occurred to me that sometimes I forget about the family members I’ve lost. When I first crossed over to the other side, I thought I would run into them every single day. Over time that feeling slowly started to fade. At first, I thought they might simply be dead, but then later I realized there might be an infinite amount of these worlds. The odds of us ending up in the same one at any given time is quite unlikely.

I've theorized that there might be temporary breaches that open up portals between different worlds, though I have don’t have the faintest clue why this would happen. If this was a common occurrence then you’d think that we’d have heard about this a lot by now. People disappearing into thin air isn't very common in my experience. Or perhaps it was written about many times before, but those writings were redacted. I haven't really given it much thought before, but I might put myself at risk by writing this. Then again, what are they going to do? It's not like I have a lot of time left. I don't have anything to lose.

I guess this makes me sound like some sort of rebel, but that is really not my style. I’m not like Sophia, I'm not looking to start a revolution. All I ask from my readers is that they have an open mind. Otherwise, this will all be a waste of time.

I know I sound a bit negative at times, but my life hasn't been all bad. Exploring a new and unknown world has actually been quite exciting. I have seen things that you cannot even begin to imagine, traveled to places that frankly shouldn't be able to exist. My life has been lived to the fullest.

The fact that I can't be happy after everything I've seen is just another symptom of that larger disease, the fear of leaving things unfinished. I guess that feeling has always been there. It goes beyond being a perfectionist and becomes nothing short of an obsession. I can spend days at a task that should really only take a few hours. Yet I eventually always reach a point of apathy where I completely abandon what I’m working on. Isn't that weird?

Keeping that in mind, this blog certainly makes a lot of sense. To put it bluntly, this is my last chance to share any wisdom I think I might have. Even if all of it turns out to pure nonsense. So, this isn't just about me. If you guys have any questions, things you want me to talk about, I'd love to hear them.